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i havnt updated this in a while, so i figured id take up a few min to update it now..im bored as hell im sick of bein in this damn place with nothing to do. i cant wait till thanksgiving when i can see everyone and be home...plus, aalyx is dying my hair blue :D which will kick ass. my parents will be pissed when i get back cuz they dont want me to, but it will be worth it cuz ive always wanted my hair dyed. but yea....on another note there is this chic at school that i kinda sorta like....idk, i have a feeling she likes me too, but im always wrong about this shit so who knows....umm yea i also started working at mcdonalds (unfortunatley) the other day....its not too bad, of course i hate it cuz its mcdonalds, but the people arnt too bad. i make 6$ an hour, and ive only worked 2 days, i work wednesday 430 to 9 its gunna take a while to get some good hours cuz i need to be worked into the schedule....but yea im gunna go cuz im watchin tv.....
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well last weekend i went home for my cousins baptism and it was probly the best weekend ive had in a very long time. i saw almost everyone i wanted to i hung out with aalyx and jess alot which was great i hung out with ryan megan and eric and that was alot of fun. i didnt stop at all that weekend i had a great time. but now im back here and it sucks cuz i miss everyone and every time i go back its gunna be harder and harder to leave them. thanksgiving is comin up soon and i am stayin with aalyx for thanksgiving which will be great. on the other hand i need a job soon cuz i have a few birthdays coming up...umm......yea school is ok i suppose. yea well im tired as hell so im gunna stop writing in this....
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Relentless I'm speechless
I'm fooled by my inner weakness
Enticing Inspiring
Your words were so convincing
Delightful but soulless
Claimed harmless wishes seems less
Exciting
Just frightening
No more dawning days
Only whispers of darkened ways
Forever falling tears
Forever falling
No more screams in vain
No more dreams put to shame
It's only me
Only me
Defenseless and smiling
Her innocence is shining
His own flesh and own blood
His words were so convincing
Delightful so beautiful
Can't stop what he's been told
She's three years old
No more dawning days
Only whispers of darkened ways
Forever falling tears
Forever falling
No more screams in vain
No more dreams put to shame
It's only me who's forever
Falling, sleepwalking, desperate, calling
No more dawning days
Only whispers of darkened ways
Forever falling tears
Lands in the hands of somber fate
evergrey--harmless wishes
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im bored so i decided to update this stupid journal.....although no1 will probly read it....idk....i need a job....i need money...got plenty of birthdays coming up....im sore as hell.....had to do hang clean max yesterday and today had to do squat max in weight training ....fuckin hurts like a bitch...but o well i figure if i can lose some weight its worth it right? yea not much to write about.....im pretty damn bored....so im gunna go....and find something to do......
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[16 Aug 2004|12:10am] |
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today sucks...i realized that i havnt had a gf in about 7 months and it sucks...i feel really alone esp cuz i only have one good friend out here, bryn who has been really great and introduced me to some kid so that i dont have to sit alone at lunch or anything..... but i dont get to see any of my friends from mass till september and thats only like a 3 day visit...then i have to wait another 2 months till november to see them it sucks...im wiked homesick i miss everyone and i wish i could just go home.... i miss goin to aalyx's on saturdays and sleeping over and feelin like everything is perfect, i feel more at home at her house then anywhere else. i just got off the phone with her about 10 min ago i miss her alot. i also talked to michelle today and i miss her too i havnt talked to her in a while...i cant wait to go back to mass to see everyone i miss them all alot...i didnt realize how hard this would be leaving everyone... im just glad that im kinda adjusting out here. i mean i met this kid in my english class whos cool i guess and bryn is great and the only actual friend i have out here, she was really nice and introduced me to one of her friends who has my lunch so i dont have to sit by myself at lunch which was really nice of her to do that. i kinda feel like i dont belong here....i miss my old house i miss sitting in my basement eating freeze pops with katy, i miss goin to aalyx's house, i miss being a mall rat, i miss poking megan and lighting stuff on fire with ryan and hangin out after school with matt and pretending to be gangstas with eric and a bunch of other shit...it hurts to think of everything that i was ripped apart from.. before i moved i was so happy i had everything i wanted i had so many friends i was actualy happy for once...my whole life ive been made fun of and rejected and when i finally started to fit in and finally was happy...i was ripped apart from my life and now i have to start all over again...i dont want to start over i miss plymouth.. i miss waking up in the winter and freezing my balls off shoveling snow in the drive way, and i miss playin baseball at the field with joel and matt and the ebys and demaio and my brother and everyone else that would always go i miss getting into arguments with everyone cuz no1 could get along when we played basketball there are so many things that i miss...on some level i also think that slowly but surely everyone or at least a good amount of my friends will forget bout me..idk y i just fear that we will drift away and i dont want that to happen...this really sucks...i havnt felt so shitty in a while...i think im gunna go... i dont feel like writing anymore...
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ya, so yesterday night was cool i hung out with bryn at my aunts and i threw her in the pool with her clothes on and stuff then we went for a walk and on the way back snuck in threw the side gate at my aunts and sat there where they couldnt see us, and listened to everyone talkin bout random crap... and it turns out we might be related by some distant cousin or somethin like that. my parents got me a new ps2 today cuz mine broke...yea well im watchin bad boys then tomb raider so im gunna go seeing as no one probly reads this anyways
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[12 Aug 2004|11:52pm] |
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hey, today school wasnt too bad, then i came home and went to some thing at the neighborhood ill be living in once the house is built well i guess it was for people who live there to get to kno each other so i went to hang out with bryn cuz she was goin there. hopefully she can come over tomorrow cuz that would be awesome. i havnt been this happy in a while. but yea....there is spozed to be a hurricane possibly even a tornado around here which would rule cuz i love hurricanes and have never seen a tornado..haha....umm ya well im gunna go....
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hey, im actually happy for once since ive moved here.... things are goin pretty well i guess. im hangin out with bryn friday, which will rule because shes awesome. ive been talkin to her a lot latley online on another note, school isnt that great cuz i dont really kno anyone still. but yea...i dont kno wat to write about...so im gunna go..
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[04 Aug 2004|05:54pm] |
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hey, havnt written in this a while, alots changed since my last entries, so i deleted the others cuz none of it is relevant anymore but yea...school for me is tomorrow which sucks cuz i dont know anyone and everyone in mass still has like a month of summer vacation left...i cant wait to go back to mass in september tho for the 10th, 11th, and 12th and hopefully i can hang out with most of my friends in that time. ill also be in mass for thanksgiving, im stayin at aalyx's for about a week, and i might be visiting in december cuz my school has 3 weeks off for xmas break. but hmm yeah SC sucks ass its too hot, and i miss my friends plus everyone is too nice around here i hate it....strangers just come up and talk to me.....its irritating...but anyways.....i dont kno wat else to write really...
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